Emotions on guard

Childhood memories of me being
So young, so pure, and so naive
But now I am nowhere near that little girl I used to be.
After the heartache, the struggles and the pain caused
By so many confused emotions.
I’ve learned now to keep my emotions on guard.
I am protective of my heart.

It has become too hard to trust strangers..
If my mistakes have taught me anything, I have learned not to repeat them.
Yet I have learned from my mistakes,
And I gratefully say that I have grown.
No longer do I wear my heart on my sleeve.
No longer am I the child you used to see.
And I am humble to say that, I am Happy!

My emotions no longer have control over me.
I know now what I didn’t know then.
I stand like a tree,
FEARLESS,
STRONG, and
TALL….
No longer will I feel belittled or small.

I am a tree, not living by emotions.
There is no high,
There is no low.
There are only leaves to let go.
Like a tree, I will grow -
Grow stronger with the minutes that soon turn into hours.Without fear is how I will spend my days living.

The Realization of Depression

I’ve deprived my eyes the freedom to cry.
I lost sense of the reasons I had..
My time was consumed with illusion,
A space,
A gap for another deception
And here it comes again.
The denied emotions,
The depression

Its 7 am my body is an anchor,
I refuse to get up.
Its 10:30 am. I’m still in bed.
Two minutes after I get up,
With no cause,
False accusations in my head

I refuse to run,
I don’t want to eat.
But I have to force myself,
Since I have a purpose to live

I can’t be controlled by these emotions,
I can’t allow them to run my life.
But I know I must cry
I need to vent.
Even though it’s hard to show my weakness
It brings me back down to earth,
And tells me I am human.

It tells me to be aware of this depression.

Generation Y

Youth steels the minds
Of our generation
Trying to keep up for that is the challenge
We are what the media wants us to be,
And for that reason
We have all changed drastically.
The modern ways, the modern ideals
Have captured our sight and controlled our minds.

No longer is it about the beauty of the woman,
Shared with her partner
Since there are so many beautiful women on TV
Telling us how we need to be.
No longer is it about the NEEDS,
It’s all about the WANTS.

I want to be skinny,
I want to be famous,
I want to have money.

So really, what has become of us?
The New Generation
The modern man,
The modern womanHow have we become so empty?

High Hopes

People mocked me,
Because I dreamed
Of stars far from
The ground

High expectations,
High hopes,
Always too high
To come around

But those words,
Did not discourage
My sight.
I felt the stars touch
My hands
Before they even
Came into sight

Kissing Frogs

I’ve never been treated better,
And sometimes I think I couldn’t get much higher.
Your actions proved every bit of my expectations wrong,
Where have you been all along?

Prince Charming I thought came only in fairy tales,
And if it’s true where’s the price?
This time I choose to fall without thinking twice.
But apart from me feeling worthy of it,
After kissing frog after frog,
I thought to myself, this is as good as it gets.

Feeling discouraged,
Depressed and used.
I thought, when am I ever going to be loved?
To be thought of without the interest or games.
I wanted something secure, something serious.
At least a frog worth kissing

This time I feel that, I didn’t kiss just any frog,
I kissed a prince who loves without self-interest.
Selfless in his actions and an unconditional partner

A prince worth having as a king,
A prince worth giving up everything.
So to my prince, I declare to you,
My heart….
With the strong belief that you will never break it apart.

The Bullet

I can feel,
It coming

POW!

It hit my face,
You left me here,
Without a trace

Here comes,
The sullen girl
With a smile
She said

I was right.

Those Three Words

Those three words,
Spoken too often
For all the wrong
Reasons.

Those three words
Creep in like
Night does to day.
And they say,
Give me company.

Those three words
Are deep
And deserve no
Company to the lonely

Only to those
Who say it with
Conviction