Bully

I wish I could be your bully,
Breaking all of your bones so you can see
That the hurt and pain
Is because of the insecurity that you caused me.

I could break all your bones,
But I can’t break your heart.
And that hurts because you broke mine.

I want you but I can’t have you.
With flesh and blood, I can’t see you.
So I pull my hair, bite my nails.
And I end up beating myself up.

I’m a bully to myself.
I’m punishing myself by even loving you.
I cuff my hands
So I won’t be the cause of another broken bone.

But it doesn’t matter any more,
Because the damage has been done already.
I gave my heart to someone who just didn’t love me.
You can break every bone in my body,
But it can’t compare to the pain you caused me.