Sunday, June 15, 2008

Birds-eye View

I feel like the caged bird
Wanting, yearning, waiting
To explore the world on my own
But strings tie me down,
It’s what the world views as limits.
And my eyes see beyond the horizons.
Behind all expectations

There cloudy views don’t foreshadow my thoughts
For one moment
I see the Sun through different colors,
And the stars as the nightlights of a dark night
I’ve open my eyes wide enough to see the colors of a soul.
The brilliance of the mind

I see shadows, sheep’s, and wolves.
I see the rainbows pot of gold.
And to be caged once again trapped exploring the world
With my mind I sing, I sing a song of sorrow
Of how I wish I was
Exploring, flying, hiking, and traveling
Learning how it feels not through pictures
But through these eyes

Monday, June 9, 2008

Parting Seas

Let me go,
I am not responsible
For the actions that you take when I leave.
All I know,
Is that I must travel and take these steps for me.
Thank you for the
Sweet, sweet memories!

My life will never be the same.
But I felt this change coming
Like the tidal waves
It was just as unexpected like
The love I felt for you.
Please don’t make me responsible,
I am not the cause….
Don’t put your dreams on pause.
Just please leave me in good memory.

I’ll think of you with a smile,
Knowing the roads diverged in peace.
That my path will lead me in the right direction
And all will happen with good reason.
Let the tidal waves of time
Wash away the pain….
Let the tears rush down like rain.
Scream my name in vain.

And then one day
When I am not so far away
The tide will go your way.
And we shall rejoice,
The parting seas shall rejoice.

Greatness is Bliss

I am racing with my thoughts
To find answers for the questions
I have asked myself for so long.
I am running at the pace that
Keeps me standing strong
With a will to learn and become
Something GREAT!

But greatness is power,
And power is feared.
Because ignorance is bliss
I won’t close the doors in my mind.
Just because you have chosen to be blind

My vision is not 20/20.
But I can see, I can see.
My eyes look close and cautiously.

With the mind of a fighter,
I fight without having to lift a finger.
Trust me for it is much wiser.

It is the wise that take control.
So I take control of my actions
And I don’t fear to be great.

For it is in you
For it is in me
For it is in everyone.

So don’t allow,Ignorance to be bliss.

Black Sabbath

As I walked into the stadium,
Expecting nothing but the medium
Black Sabbath rocking out in the background.

I walk into the smell,
Of weed, beer and
Rock’n’roll

I stood there,
Asking myself,

Do I belong?

(Guitar solo starts)

Do I belong?

I love rock’n’roll
But I dislike the smell.

I don’t smoke weed,
I don’t drink beer,
But that doesn’t make me perfect.
I am not an angel.
But my debate is,
Whether I belong in,

Heaven or Hell?

Miles Per Hour

Minds running 1,000 miles per hour,
Feet pacing to the beat of the drums
I open my eyes.

I found morning,
With the speed of day
I sneeze to receive a blessing.

Late afternoon,
Still racing towards the night
Not seizing the moment,
All in a rush
In a rush, we can’t wait till work ends.
In a rush, we can’t wait to get home.
In a rush, we can’t wait to go to sleep.

We dream,
We live,
We die.

That is life,
Yet we know nothing about the afterlife.
So humans found a solution called religion
To wash the fear of death away
We live in faith,To hold that optimistic way of living

Years of my Youth

Love can break promises.
And that I’ve witnessed
With my own eyes

I grew up, too much
Too early, too soon -
Some say too early to bloom.
But I grew,
With no male figure to look up to

I found out that daddy
Had many little girls
And never claimed responsibility.

His actions at youth
Taught me maturity
And I am thankful,
I am thankful.

Silence

Silence is,
Judgmental.
Creeps in,
Unexpectedly
Screams truth
In every corner

Silence is I
And I am Silence!

Emotions on guard

Childhood memories of me being
So young, so pure, and so naive
But now I am nowhere near that little girl I used to be.
After the heartache, the struggles and the pain caused
By so many confused emotions.
I’ve learned now to keep my emotions on guard.
I am protective of my heart.

It has become too hard to trust strangers..
If my mistakes have taught me anything, I have learned not to repeat them.
Yet I have learned from my mistakes,
And I gratefully say that I have grown.
No longer do I wear my heart on my sleeve.
No longer am I the child you used to see.
And I am humble to say that, I am Happy!

My emotions no longer have control over me.
I know now what I didn’t know then.
I stand like a tree,
FEARLESS,
STRONG, and
TALL….
No longer will I feel belittled or small.

I am a tree, not living by emotions.
There is no high,
There is no low.
There are only leaves to let go.
Like a tree, I will grow -
Grow stronger with the minutes that soon turn into hours.Without fear is how I will spend my days living.

The Realization of Depression

I’ve deprived my eyes the freedom to cry.
I lost sense of the reasons I had..
My time was consumed with illusion,
A space,
A gap for another deception
And here it comes again.
The denied emotions,
The depression

Its 7 am my body is an anchor,
I refuse to get up.
Its 10:30 am. I’m still in bed.
Two minutes after I get up,
With no cause,
False accusations in my head

I refuse to run,
I don’t want to eat.
But I have to force myself,
Since I have a purpose to live

I can’t be controlled by these emotions,
I can’t allow them to run my life.
But I know I must cry
I need to vent.
Even though it’s hard to show my weakness
It brings me back down to earth,
And tells me I am human.

It tells me to be aware of this depression.

Generation Y

Youth steels the minds
Of our generation
Trying to keep up for that is the challenge
We are what the media wants us to be,
And for that reason
We have all changed drastically.
The modern ways, the modern ideals
Have captured our sight and controlled our minds.

No longer is it about the beauty of the woman,
Shared with her partner
Since there are so many beautiful women on TV
Telling us how we need to be.
No longer is it about the NEEDS,
It’s all about the WANTS.

I want to be skinny,
I want to be famous,
I want to have money.

So really, what has become of us?
The New Generation
The modern man,
The modern womanHow have we become so empty?

High Hopes

People mocked me,
Because I dreamed
Of stars far from
The ground

High expectations,
High hopes,
Always too high
To come around

But those words,
Did not discourage
My sight.
I felt the stars touch
My hands
Before they even
Came into sight

Kissing Frogs

I’ve never been treated better,
And sometimes I think I couldn’t get much higher.
Your actions proved every bit of my expectations wrong,
Where have you been all along?

Prince Charming I thought came only in fairy tales,
And if it’s true where’s the price?
This time I choose to fall without thinking twice.
But apart from me feeling worthy of it,
After kissing frog after frog,
I thought to myself, this is as good as it gets.

Feeling discouraged,
Depressed and used.
I thought, when am I ever going to be loved?
To be thought of without the interest or games.
I wanted something secure, something serious.
At least a frog worth kissing

This time I feel that, I didn’t kiss just any frog,
I kissed a prince who loves without self-interest.
Selfless in his actions and an unconditional partner

A prince worth having as a king,
A prince worth giving up everything.
So to my prince, I declare to you,
My heart….
With the strong belief that you will never break it apart.

The Bullet

I can feel,
It coming

POW!

It hit my face,
You left me here,
Without a trace

Here comes,
The sullen girl
With a smile
She said

I was right.

Those Three Words

Those three words,
Spoken too often
For all the wrong
Reasons.

Those three words
Creep in like
Night does to day.
And they say,
Give me company.

Those three words
Are deep
And deserve no
Company to the lonely

Only to those
Who say it with
Conviction

Love Breaks Walls

Walls
Inside our minds
Grow,
Grow deep within
Till it builds

The youth of our hearts
Once naive,
Now grows.
Exposed to truth,
The colors fade.

Into the hands
Of a painter

Once prey,
Now the lover.

My ideal World

Would have to be a place
Where the bees don’t sting
And the birds always sing.

Where children always play,
And the rain stays away.
Where fairy tales are real,
And heartache isn’t
An emotion you can feel.

Where there’s no such thing as
Drugs, criminals, or killers
Peace is alive and there no need for bills,
Arguments or politics

Where everyone is EQUAL
No upper or lower class people.
Where silverware and topper wear is plastic
No glass to break for those who are clumsy

Where there is never a reason to cry,
A world full of people who can’t die
Where candy is medication for depression,
And couples don’t divorce once they say I do.
Everyone is family, where
The questions lies what is an enemy?

Where pain is cured
With a kiss
Where hunger never has to exist
Good times are always timeless.
Everyone has a smile,
Everyone gives a hug,
Is what I pictured my ideal world to be.

I take the Fault

It was my fault for falling,
Sinking into your arms too soon
And now we are nothing,
No longer do our hearts chase noon.

It was my fault for calling,
Telling you that we could be friends.
When we cannot..
We didn’t give each other the space,
For our hearts to mend

It was my fault for caring,
When I should have just walked away.
Once I saw the truth in you,
It was my fault for putting up with all the shit you put me through.

It was my fault for not paying attention,
Not breaking through the dirty window,
Not seeing what was your intention
I was fooled by the false sense of worship,
That soon turned into obsession.

It was my fault for misleading your emotions,
Knowing that the only commitment I had was to myself -
Not with you or anyone else.

But it was your fault when you said
Goodbye.
You wanted another chance, another try.
But I can’t,
The reason being that,
I feel no need to take the blame again.

Hurt Again

Why are my eyes sad again?
When I thought I had control
Over my emotions.
I was hiding from the thought of you.
In the empty space in my heart remains you -
Your furniture,
Your gifts,
Your bed.

You wander through my head.
I wish my eyes weren’t so visible,
So you won’t be able to see how you took what’s left of me.
So I chose to avoid you,
Enabling you to see my weaknesses.

I choose not to see your face,
Which I use to touch with so much care.
I choose not to see your eyes,
And if that sparkle is still there.
I choose not to see you.

And if you feel the pain
I choose not to know.
If in your heart my space still remains,
All I want is that you won’t get a chance to see me
The way you left me.

I don’t want to know the way I left you
Because what broke us apart
Just might bring us back together.
And I love myself too much
To let myself get hurt again

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Dark Eyes

Your beautiful eyes
Are as dark as the whole
Inside of me, burning to be loved

They speak to me in silence,
And give me a look - longing to be wanted.
I stumble upon your eyes.
I see the truth, the hope and the feelings that you withhold.

I am so scared that at times I turn cold.
Once you glance at me, I melt.
I am where I belong.

By night, your dark eyes light up the moon,
By day, your dark eyes give shade till noon.
Dark eyes, please bring these brown eyes
The hope, the company.

I need shade during the day,
And I long to see the moon glow
So please, dark eyes of truth, stay!

Promise me forever and today.

Day and Night

She is your night,
I am your day -
Two souls alike in their own way.

Although horizons long to fight
The sun will always shine,
As the moon longs for her time

It is day and night,
A mixture of wrong and right.
Combined they will clash.

That is why God made time for each one.
When the sun is gone,
The moon will come.

God made them that way,
So they both shine every day.
Beautiful they both are,
In there own time zones, they are the stars.

But hidden from afar,
As little as a star,
The sun looks up to the moon,
Watching its beauty bloom.

And the creator of these two sisters
Who always watches them is Mother Nature,Which is God in the eyes of the sun and the moon..

Flower

My stomach feels like a cage filled with butterflies.
From the way you got me I'm mesmerised.
I can't control this emotion.
Like a volcano about to explode,
I’m about to burst.

Feelings never felt - you’re my first.
Your love is like some kind of map.
Trying to figure out how to adapt.
In your veins remains a path.
It can't be solved - it's not math.

Within blood flows, and
Straight to your heart it goes.
A part of your heart I want to hold,
Because to me,
It’s more precious than gold.

I want to be the owner of your mind.
The one who leaves worries behind.
I want to be your happiness,
And to overcome your sadness.
To be the girl that you need,
The one who plants a seed.
Our love is like a flower,
In sunshine, it takes a shower.

Brave Heart

Dripping with emotions falling down her eyes.
With a head full of lies, she cries.
Ignorant to the voice within, she let her emotions win.
But she chose to fight that battle,
For more she didn’t settle.
For her heart to take that leap,
She knows she must feel something deep.

For so many years,
Falling in love was one of her worst fears.
She opened a door, gave emotions she swore never to give.
Now with a scar she will have to live.
But she is glad that she took a leap,
Of an emotion she can keep.

Once upon a time, she feared love and all.
She was scared to even fall.
Now her fear has gone away.
Since she gave into love yesterday.
Because it takes only a brave heart.
To break all fear apart.

And she did when she took loves leap,Even if her heart was wounded deep.

Bully

I wish I could be your bully,
Breaking all of your bones so you can see
That the hurt and pain
Is because of the insecurity that you caused me.

I could break all your bones,
But I can’t break your heart.
And that hurts because you broke mine.

I want you but I can’t have you.
With flesh and blood, I can’t see you.
So I pull my hair, bite my nails.
And I end up beating myself up.

I’m a bully to myself.
I’m punishing myself by even loving you.
I cuff my hands
So I won’t be the cause of another broken bone.

But it doesn’t matter any more,
Because the damage has been done already.
I gave my heart to someone who just didn’t love me.
You can break every bone in my body,
But it can’t compare to the pain you caused me.

Flawless

I love my flaws, my mistakes, and who I am.
My flaws is what make me, me.
My mistakes are what make me stronger and wiser.

I love not knowing ahead,
I love knowing that I could be forgiven.
I love everything that God has given me.

Although I know I am not flawless,
The mirror doesn’t fool my eyes.
It’s a friend that only tells what is the truth.
Letting me to be able to see,
That beauty is so much more then what people think of me.

I have Latina curves inherited from my family.
I have freckles on my face,
And I believe there are all in the right places.
My curves I do embrace.

I love the color of my skin,
And the strength I hold within.
I’ve learned to love others beyond the superficial,
Because nobody is really flawless.

Even with all the surgery, nobody can fit the description of perfection.
We all have flaws no matter what shape you are.
Even if you are a big star,
Looks can only go so far.

Time could be an enemy or a friend.Time can steal youth but it can’t steal the beauty created within.

Rag Doll

Do I belong to you?
Or do I belong to myself?
‘I really don’t know.

I’ve been tossed around
Like some kind of rag doll.
And it has taken its toll,
Bringing my hopes up and down.

Look at what I found - another piece
Of me on the ground.
And it hurts!
Where’s the glue if I belong to you?

Take care of me, marry me
Be loyal and true.
My mind is cluttered with words
But all I have are these eyes.

My freedom of speech has been
Sewn together.
Can’t you see?
I need someone to help me.

So untie these strings,
I’ll fill your face up lies.
And tell you all you’d like to hear.
Just give me your ear,
And when you’re sleeping,
I will kiss you goodnight.

Chore Shaker

For a heart that seeks nothing but truth,
For a soul that sees bigger than the sun,
For eyes that will love beyond the physical,
I will love and open my heart to commit.

For a man who loves me for me,
I would surrender completely,
I would give up my freedom to be locked in his arms
Tangled into one,
All because of the feeling of knowing to who’s heart I belong.

For a physical that shakes the core of my emotions,
For a heart that gives without asking to receive.
For feet that walk unselfishly,
For a body that will love all of me.

I would give up the wild nights
All to be a victim of
Your lips,
Your touch,
You’re everything.
But the problem is,
I haven’t yet found you,So until I do, my heart will run wild and free

Hallow

I am empty,
I have nothing left to feel.
You took all that was left of me.
I am hollow like a shell without its owner.
I am back to where I started
.
Another tangled web with no answer.
Why make the promises that you knew deep down I longed for?
Why the lies?
Telling me all the things I wanted to hear more and more.
Why me? Why not someone else?

I made things easy when I should have made them harder.
But now I am back to where I started.
Another empty space,
Another poem for the brokenhearted

I am hollow….
Hollow like the empty room with no furniture.
You stole all that was left inside.

No feelings, No cure,
Nothing left that’s pure.
I am hollow, cold and
Back to mistaken pride.

Meant to Fly

Meant to Fly

I scream, you scream, we both scream.
Words that we don’t really mean.
I hate you, you hate me, but we’re still standing as we.
We compromise; letting eyes conceals tears of lies.

We both know that at some point, we must let go.
But my heart and your heart aren’t willing to conceal.
What we both know is real, and if two hearts can feel
Why give up that art that was created by two hearts?

You know the end is coming soon,
And nature has to bloom.
I am a butterfly while you are a spider,
Tying my wings tighter, and making my eyes wider.

True colors must show, and you and me, we know
That it is time, time to let go.
You must show your talent, creative spider,
And I must fly into the sky - every day higher.

If you think that I just up and abandoned you.
It’s not because I wanted to.
It’s because it’s time that I show,
The colors you didn’t want to let go.

And if destiny puts you in front of me at the right time.
Then I will know that your heart truly is mine.
But for now, you know the reasons why this butterfly had to go.
You and I know that these wings were meant to fly.
And they’re flying each day higher into the sky.

Welcome

Welcome

Can you believe that poetry is born,
Within the pawn of a single hand
That in your mind you can create a land,
Where emotions could be put into words on a single paper?
The gift is to not think like any other.
The magic is to feel and relate to what you say.
That’s why people write poetry every day.
The word “Poetry”,
Is my therapy to let out emotions that I fool eyes to see.
It is my best friend because,
I know in the end.
It will be between you and me.

There are no fights to comprise because,
It sees light within my eyes.
I created this land,
Within the right pun of my hand
And now I choose to show,
The side of me no one knows.
So through my poetry
I give eyes to see all of me.

Welcome to my world.
Here is my poetry.